It’s SO easy to cheat when things get boring or even hard in relationships. Meeting people has become even more convenient than in the past. It’s easy to carry on conversations over text messaging in front of your partner or create an online dating profile without your significant other having any clue.
And once you have been cheated on…. you feel like you can’t ever trust again.
You feel “crazy” because you start questioning everything. It starts to drive you nuts, because it’s all you ever think about.
You want to know everything… but even with the proof right in front of you… you still REALLY don’t want to believe it.
I mean… how could he do this to you? To us? To our family?
How could he possibly want to be with someone else? Doesn’t the last (two, five, ten, twenty, etc) years mean anything to him?
It’s a terrible feeling. It’s cold. It’s devastating. It’s lonely. It’s realizing that EVERYTHING, meant NOTHING.
It steals your best memories with him, tainting them with anger and resentment.
I know how this feels because I have been there, and it was one of the hardest times in my life.
I literally had to peel myself off the floor everyday and force myself to take one step at a time.
I felt numb. It was easier to feel nothing…. than to feel something.
But I found out that if you choose to be numb so you don’t have to feel anything… you don’t feel ANYTHING.
I robbed myself of my joy, my peace of mind, my self love…. I did the worst thing ever…
I robbed myself from LIVING LIFE.
I took my own life (temporarily) because I allowed someone else to have my power. I valued them more than myself. I honored them more than myself.
Who can relate?